Christie's World

I love this song...it never gets old

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 02:11:26 GMT

Sleep with all the lights on.
You're not so happy.
You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans,
but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds.
Dorms unload & your heading out.
Here is your moment to shine.

Making up a history.
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man, will they buy all your lines.

Sleep with all the sheets off
bearing your mattress
bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos
but you're searching just like everyone
could be anyone.
And the friends that you have are the best
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.

Making up a history,
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man will they buy all your lines.

We're not twenty-one,
but the sooner we are,
the sooner the fun will begin,
so get out your fake eyelashes,
and fake i.d's,
& real disasters ensue,
it's cool to take these chances.
It's cool to fake romances
& grow up fast.

Drama

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 21:19:09 GMT

Man i am so sick of this. i am so sick of ppl calling me and telling me well he did this and she did that..and they did this. omg just leave me alone. i am so sick of dealing with all of this. everything was perfect until she came along. what makes her so special that he had to talk to her and not me :( i am so sick of ppl telling me who is right and who is wrong. it just seems like no one will listen to me. uhh if i could have just like 5 minutes to myself. i am getting so stressed out about this. everything was so perfect and now all of this. i am so scared they will start hanging out again and start....i dunno being shady. i dont think he would ever do that to me but i dont like this feeling in my chest n e more. everytime i think of them two actually having a conversation makes me feel like i am going to throw up. i dont know if that is what you call a bitch...but i mean if it is oh well. i love him so much and he means the world to me and i dont think he would hurt me again but i am so scared that he will think its ok to do this again. god why did she have to come into the picture. why does she always have to be the one that makes us fight. why does she have to be the one that makes me get jelous. i hate this. if those stupid rumors never started i wouldnt of had n e problem. she is making out like what i did was wrong when she knows good and well its not me. its her. i feel so alone in this. i feel like uhh i hate this so much. i hate crying over this. i hate it when ppl keep telling me new information that i dont even care to hear but they tell me n e ways. i trust him completely but i am just so scared that i dunno....everything will go back they way it used to be....the way it was in the summer. when it was ok not to tell me things and that it was ok to bend the truth and even lie to me. since he's been gone every weekend gets better and better. and now that she is out of the picture...i can finally say we are perfect. but no ...it was to good to be true. she has to start up again.she is such a drama queen. why cant she just leave me alone.i hate this so much. i love him so much. i hate her. i hate this feeling........

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 20:33:32 GMT

So school this year isnt that bad. i thought that my class was going to be so lame this year. but its not. its tight as shit actually. its going by pretty fast too. like i mean its almost october. fuck man thats crazy.

my classes are a joke. its really hard not to just skip but i do it n e ways and it has already started to kick me in the ass. but i mean o hwell i deserve it.

jeremy is coming home this weekend. :) im always excited about that

me adn jessie have been hanging out alot lately. she is a kewl girl. we went up to athens last monday on our little day off. omg i had so much fun.

well peace out

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 02:57:42 GMT

Braves game was the shit...but they lost ::sighs::

driving up there was fun

driving home was fun

pretty much my day was amazing

oh yeah and we had early release day and i skipped like an idiot....but it was all worth it in the end

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 20:07:37 GMT

So the salem game was probaly the most amazing game i have ever seen in my whole entire life. if you missed it your lame. we stole the salem flag bitches!

homecoming night was awesome as usuall. i had the perfect date...and the best time ever. jeremy took me to the varsity afterwards...it was awesome!

well i dont really have alot to say only that....last night was the best Laguna Beach episode EVER!

You gotta love Journey man

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:30:28 GMT

Lying beside you
Here in the dark
Feeling your heart with mine
Softly you whisper
You're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are
By my side

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you
Living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you
Wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you
With open arms
Nothing to hide
Believe what I say
So here I am
With open arms
Hoping you'll see
What your love means to me
Open arms

I have senioritis bad

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 17:15:36 GMT

So UGA came to rockdale today and i decided that i would go sit and listen. but then i thought would it be worth it? i could either
A.)Sit and listen to someone talk about UGA for an hour even though i wouldnt be able to get in
B.)sit in class and watch some gay ass movie
C.)get a pass to listen to the UGA guy and then just LEAVE!!
well i guess we all know what the answer to that little quiz was. i choose C.

so i decided that i am going to homecoming this saturday. at first i was like ahh it will be gay blah blah and i didnt think jeremy would want to go with me cause i dunno i just assume things. well it turned out that jeremy wanted to go after all! and now i am like excited about saturday. i was going to wear the dress i wore last year but natalie made me feel dumb......

Natalie:"So are you going to homecoming this year?"
Christie:"Yeah i am going to homecoming with jeremy"
Natalie:"Awww what dress are you going to wear?"
Christie:"Well i think i am just going to wear the dress i wore last year. No one will remember."
Natalie:"Haha Christie your a LOSER!!!!"

So i talked her into letting me wear one of her old dresses. which i am really glad she let me because this dress is sooooooooo cute!!! now all i need is a strapless bra so my boobs dont look funny haha i cant wait.

so friday is the big night! we are playing against salem. i know we will get raped but being there like in the type of atmosphere and all is fun. i think the seniors are talegating again. last friday was so much fun. sucks for whoever missed it....::cough cough::

well my parents are finally painting my room and it looks really good. i am excited when i get my curtains and stuff delivered. wuhoo

and the grandparents are flying in from maryland so this will be one crazy week next week....ahh i am a little scared. but i just hope my parents let me party it up on homecoming night. i dont really think they will let me but oh well who knows.

well im out bitches

Hands Down

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 01:56:24 GMT

So i just had the best weekend of my entire life. It was incredible. I got the chance to get out of this terrible town.

me, jessie, crystal, hannah, and sarah all went to st. simons for labor day weekend. omg i never had so much fun. we met some really kewl ppl down there. there was so much that happend i cant even type it all......"Everyone come and look at how good i look!" hahaha

so the ride home was very exhausting. it was loooooooong. i mean i didnt want to leave but it felt good to like be home so oh well.

jeremy came over. he didnt leave yet for college which was REALLY good. he is the greatest. he didnt leave till like 9:30. ::sighs:: i love that kid lol

i really dont want to go to school tomorrow but i just know that i already have 1 month down and 8 to go. phew. lol

well i am really tired/exhausted. peace out.

ITS CRAZY OUT THERE!

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 21:06:41 GMT

OMG it just took me 45 minutes to just to put ten dollars in my car....have fun filling it up. i almost got hit by like twenty people. it was madness i tell ya

I have a new obsession......besides jeremy...:)

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 03:16:06 GMT

So i give props to the drama kids. they know how to entertain a gal.i had a lot of fun at coffee house tonight. it was tight.

so uhhh i am GOING TO THE BEACH BIZNAAAATCH wuhhooooo! i am soooo stoked. i need a get away. which the only bad thing is i wont see jeremy for a while but i dont think he is coming home this weekend so oh well.

well i have nothing else to say...peace

*Call Me On Your Way Back Home*

Oh baby why do I miss you like I do
Oh I miss my sweet
And the birds all singing blue
And white

And white
Call me on your way back home dear
Cause I miss you

Honey I ain't nothing new
Oh baby why did I treat you like I did
Honey I was just a kid
Bubblegum on my shoe

But you love me and I love you
Call me on your way back home dear
Cause I miss you
And I just wanna die without you
Oh I just wanna die without you
Yeah I just wanna die without you

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 19:46:16 GMT

Oh yeah and i didnt mean caitlYn i meant caitlIn i dont know who caitlYn is lol

waiting for lime wire to finish downloading

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 21:17:59 GMT

Well i went to school late today because i just didnt feel like being rushed like i do every other morning so w/e. i have been waking up in these terrible moods. ::shrugs:: sometimes i hate odd days because thye seem longer then even days .....even though i get out earlier. i guess cause i am anxious to leave or something.

well public speaking was actually fun today. me and Caitlyn w. had some pretty good conversations. and we watched the news about the hurricane. it was kewl.

economics was not fun as usual. i hate that class mainly because i hate the ppl in that class. i am just sick and tired of walking in there every day and hearing about fucking video games. GET A FUCKING LIFE. i mean yeah they are fun to play but damn. and they always talk about how they "RAPE" ppl in haylo when in reality they probaly SUCK ASS. psh w/e

so after school me and Caitlyn w. hung out. had a pretty nice time. we went to starbucks had the GREATEST conversation i think. your a cool cat WILSON lol. i dont think i will kick your ass n e more...:)

well this weekend was suppose to be the best weekend ever but it was a total flop. friday i was planning on going to the football game and having a fun time but on my way there i get a call saying that jeremy was in town and at first i thought she was a total idiot i was like...uhh he is like three hours away. so then come to find out he was. so i was sad cause i thought he came to town and didnt even tell me...:( but then again he was trying to "suprise me" but it was ruined but the football game was ok cause we won. i wouldnt of had fun if justin wasnt there.

afterwards i really didnt want to go home so i just called brian to see waht he was doing and i hung out with him and chase and some wierd girl and this other guy names brian. it was cool hanging out with brian. he's a really nice guy. but he keeps leaving his shirt in my car..lol

so the next day i wake up in the WORST MOOD. i was just stressed out about some things. and to top it off my mom was yelling at me to clean my room and stuff. and then i wanted to see jeremy. so ashley and her boyfriend finally get here and ashley is in this i want to bitch to christie about EVERYTHING. so i am like god i havent seen you in a while chill out. and she gets mad at me cause i show her boyfriend this picture of her when she was in like 7th grade and she got so mad at me. uh.it was just annoying. but she did cut my hair and its cute i guess but i want more layers so i am getting it fixed in a few weeks.

well we made plans to go to the lazer show. i have been wanting to go for like the longest time. so i was getting a little impatient because i just wanted everyone to be ready to go and i wanted to see everyone. so to make things better we leave at like 8 lol. which it was ok i guess. we got there right when it started so it wasnt that bad. lol i had an awesome time. i love going to the lazer show. i was glad jeremy and natalie went too...:) so after the lazer show we just sat in the grass and chilled for a while. it was fun. i love my boyfriend. lol

after that we all went back to my house and we watched jurrasic park lol. it was fun.

bt then that next morning ashley and chris had to leave. :( but i was excited to see jeremy. but he only came over for like two seconds because he had to leave...:( which sucked because i didnt get to see him really this weekend. ::sighs::

to top it all off i am suppose to go to the beach this weekend and my mom wont let me. she said that since i dont have a job then i had to get one and if i did go i had to use my own moeny haha. which sucks cause i am saving it all for gas. hey call me self-ish if you want. ::shrugs:: oh well that sorta put a damper on my weekend. so now i will be stuck at home staring at my ceiling man this bites...hopefully there will be a party or something this weekend its been a long time since i have partied....

well i got to go...its thundering really bad. peace

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 19:56:55 GMT

I wish my friend and her boyfriend would hurry up and get here from tennessee....:( i am really bored and i miss her.

this week sucks. i hate it. i wish i was done with alot of things......

i am sick of alot of shit. i might end up having a breakdown pretty soon. lol

i am suppose to go to the lazer show tonight. i have been wanting to go for ever. natalie and justin are going with us. and i we are hoping that lacey can go. :)

well i got a new computer too. its relly big and nice. i like it alot. the only thing is that all my pictures are on my other computer! and i cant get them off...:( so i dont know what i am going to do. ::sighs::

i bought a hair straigtener this morning. it was a waste of my money. i knew i should have saved it for gas. not having a job sucks. my parents told me that as soon as i run out of gas then my car is parked. ::sighs:: man this bites

well i am just going to go watch some more i love lucy......

unemployed

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 01:52:13 GMT

So i quit my job this week. i was so pissed off that my boss was making me work a day that i wasnt even scheduled to work. and this was all because scott wanted to go to some football game. i was actually scared that i had quit for something silly but then i thought about it and i was like...pshh it was totally worth it cause in the end scott had to work that night. i was even lame and drove by there just to see if he was. lol the one thing that sucks is not having NO MONEY!!! i have to limit my driving untill my next pay check. knowing my boss he prolly deducted my pay so insted of having 6 an hour he prolly made it to 5.25 or something. man i am going to be so pissed if he did that. but in a way i guess i deserve it because i just sort of walked out. i was sooo mad and emotional that day. now when i think about it i could have handled the situation more mature but at the time he was like if you dont show up your fired. and that really did not go well with me. he is a sexest bastard and i hate him.

so jeremy came home yesterday. :) i missed him so much. this week was so hard for me. i hate it that he is gone cause i am sad all the time. and then he said that he wasnt coming home next weekend which sucks because that means i wont see him for two weeks...:( i just really hope i can get super strong...not just for him but for me. this whole college thing sucks tremendously. i dont know if i spelled that right. it was just so great to see his green car pull into my driveway with out knowing and then while i was running outside hearing my phone ring but knew it was him and walking outside with a :shocked: face and him having the biggest smile ever. and then i run to his car my heart is racing as i see him jump out of his car as quickly as he could and i jump on him and him squeezing me so tight. ::sighs:: and him just kissing me on my head and hold me and hearing him say how much he missed me.....that had to be one of the best moments with him. he is so wonderful and i know i get aggravated with him at times but i love him so much and i wouldnt do n e thing to change what we have. well maybe to see him more but i mean still lol. i just dont want him to like i dunno change his mind about staying with me. that is actually the only thing that scares me. not cheating on me or breaking up with me because he found some other girl. i guess cause that seems so i dunno not him lol i dunno.. this is making me up set new topic......

so i went job hunting today and i have officially decided that being seventeen sucks. you cant get a decent job n e where with out being 18! i really want to work at a hair salon or a tanning bed but that is like a dream job for me. i mean i would have the nights off and i would have to work saturday's but i mean it wouldnt be like all day. or a tanning bed! i could tan whenever i wanted!!! ::sighs:: but if not i would really like to work at mountain adventures. i just dont want to work n e where that deals with FOOD. uck. i got sick of smelling like a waffle cone everytime i went home.

well i am actually getting pretty tired. i have to be at jeremy's house tomorrow at 9:30 because i am going to church with him. so im outie

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 00:23:15 GMT

Wuhoo i got my GREENDAY tickets.

well this week is going by sooooooo slloooowwwww. i guess cause i am so anxious for jeremy to come home. i miss him so much...:( and this asshole at my work switched my hours with out asking me by the way and now i prolly wont have friday night off....uhhh I HATE YOU SCOTT BENSON!!!!!

well school is officially a waste of my time. all my classes are a joke a fucking joke. i mean who wants to take public speaking. i mean come on. its so stupid. i had to do a 3-5 min speech on n e thing and yeah i totally wasnt prepared so i just walked up to the front of the class and talked about bruster's for three min. it was interesting at what came out of my mouth..lol

Getting out early isnt the same with out jeremy not being at home lol. i dont know what to do n e more. i just go home and sleep or something. its so wierd. and sometimes.....i actually do my home work.....

but one good thing is that i still keep in touch with lacey. i was scared that she was going to go to college and like meet all these new ppl and forget all abut me. but she calls me like everynight and we talk for a while.

i just got invited to st. simons for labor day weekend. i am excited about that. jessie has a house down there and she invited me to go with her hannah crystal and sarah. wuhoo

i am also excited about spring break. i dont think it will be as fun as last yer but who knows. last year was pretty crazy.

well i am going to go eat something. i havent ate n e thing since lunch....so i am pretty hungry.....

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 22:54:13 GMT

So i did it...i said goodbye. i wont see you until friday which sucks. well it wont suck for you because i know this week will go by fast cause so far you have been really busy. i just hope you wont ever get to busy to call me or talk to me....or even think about me. it sucks cause im always wondering what will happen. i am so scared that you will change or something. or that you wont want to try and make this work. im not really scared..... im petrified.

i love you so much. it sucks so bad cause im always wondering what you doing what kind of ppl your meeting and if your at least mentioning me to people...::shrugs::the past few times ive talked to you ....you didnt seem to interested in talking. please dont call me cause you think you have to. man this sucks. i just want this to work. i just want you to miss me as much as i miss you. i know we have talked about this a billion times its just we dont know what kind of ppl you will meet in the future. who knows you might change your whole opinion about us. im scared that you will feel like your being held down or something and you just want to be...."free" but i dunno. im just talking a bunch of non-sense i guess.

i just love you so much and i want you to know that. im so scared. its hard to be strong. i miss you so much. hopefullly you do too

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 02:57:24 GMT

Why does everyone have to go to college...why cant they all wait till i can go to college....:( i dont want n e one to leave me here in c-town by myself

:-*

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 00:35:30 GMT

Well ummm this has been a very stressful week...::sighs::

i am really sad cause jeremy is leaving me saturday....i love him so much and i am going to miss him terribly. he is the greatest. he always knows what to say and uhh he is just so wonderful.

Me and him are going to see Greenday on August 23rd. i am soooo excited. i bought the tickets cause i knew jeremy is like obsessed with them and he would have been the best person to go with hands down. i think he is still in shock that were going haha. and plus its sort of a i love you dont forget about me gift for when he goes to college...haha

so school sucks. i officially hate rockdale and the people in rockdale. drama on the third day of school will probally be my highlight of my year. i love it that i loose a few pounds and BAM im on ice all of a sudden. its so crazy how that gets around....i didnt know i was on ice last time i checked...lol i just keep countin down the days till may so i can get the hell outa here.

well i am out <3

Blah

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 18:04:05 GMT

First day was ok i guess....my 5th period was actually my favorite....so far. and i liked 7th period....oh wait...i dont have one...muhahaha

ok im going to the bank now....

I love you...:)

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 04:18:26 GMT

Well i can finally say that this week has by far been one of the best weeks of the summer.....and its the last lol

i have done something every single night and i havent been sitting at home wuhoo

i hung out with lacey and natalie all week....i am really gonna miss lacey when she leaves for auburn. she is my best friend...:(

i got natalie hooked up with justin at work....(SCOTT IT WAS A HIT!) lol now every time i see her she wont be talking a bunch of nonsense it will be about justin...as if i wasnt around him enough...haha j/k i love nads

i am a sad cause jeremy is leaving in like two weeks for ga south-western...::sighs:: i am gonna miss him so much. he's the greatest.
me and him are going to americus tomorrow so he can apply for jobs and stuff while he is in college. its going to be a 3 hour long drive...but as long as he is with me i know it will be great....we have his i-pod handy to listen too...wuhoo that thing is amazing

well after that we are going to go to the lazer show...YAY i have been wanting to go ALLLLLL summer...we were suppose to go tonight but it was raining but i didnt mind at all we still hung out :)

well this has been the first big update in a loooooong time....sooooo i hope you enjoyed it....until next time

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 16:14:25 GMT

i dont know any thing any more

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 05:35:56 GMT

talking to old friends is nice.....

i cant wait to party with you saturday margaret!

:(

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 04:42:50 GMT

..............

Columbus maybe????

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 03:44:42 GMT

hhmm what college should i go too??? tuff decision

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 02:48:15 GMT

ahhh i am so bored.....what have i done with my life

*Christie's World*